Is it unreasonable for me to expect some major changes in my body after running for almost a month now? Like, I haven’t lost any weight at all. And it’s not just because I’m still eating the same. I’ve been eating healthier as well too :-/ I feel like over the past 2 days running has been easier, but I still look the same 

So, I’ve been running pretty consistently for…3 weeks now? I feel like it hasn’t gotten any easier :-/

Today was my third day in a row running, and my legs are kinda sore. When I woke up on the second day I felt great. I barely felt anything. But, as the day progressed, I began to feel a burn in my leg muscles. That day I ran my mile in 10 minutes and 22 seconds. 

When I woke up today, my legs were killing me. Standing up and sitting down was awful, and don’t even get me started on stairs -_-

I was really excited to run today, but it freakin’ hurt. I came in at a little over 11 minutes. I’m trying not to let that get to me too much. To be fair to myself, my legs are still recovering so it’s hard for me to go very quickly. Hopefully I’ll only have to deal with being sore for a couple more days.

Running feels good. Starting over wasn’t as hard this time around. I can run a mile without wanting to quit or pass out. I think that’s part of the reason why I’ve continued to do it. Before, I would be heaving for breath at only half a mile or so. I’d have to force myself to continue. Now it’s almost…easy. I like it. I feel like I’m doing more than sitting on my butt and wasting my life away. Now, when I see people running on campus or the old people running in my neighborhood I don’t feel so ashamed of myself. I’m pretty sure those old people could still out run me any day. For now.

Man, I just really hope that I can force myself to keep this up. I hate not being able to see the results of my work quickly, and I think that’s part of the reason why I always give up on exercise. I like getting a quick pay off. Maybe that’ll change this time.I enjoy people being able to see me run, even if I’m kinda slow now. It’s showing that I’m making an effort to get in shape, you know? It’s nice to not have my parents breathing down my back about losing weight or being active. 

I went on a run today. I only went a mile, but I feel like I could’ve done at least another half of a mile It felt really good. I was barely even out of breath when I finished. I didn’t think to time myself until half way in, but I feel like I was going pretty fast. I feel really good. Really good. I’m proud of myself for being able to do it, ‘cause I haven’t really been active for at least a year now. I’m really excited because I feel like I’m going to be healthier and lose weight and be sexy for once in my life if I keep this up. If. There’s also that nagging feeling that I’ll end up giving up on this just like I did all of my other plans to get in shape, especially since the end of the semester is coming up. Well, hopefully I’ll stay with it.

I have this really stupid problem of liking any guy that treats me like a girl. Like, I guess boys usually just treat me like one of the guys…or maybe not even that. All I know is that they don’t treat me like a girl. So, when a boy does act like I’m a girl I go crazy and declare my love for them…not to their faces. Just to all my friends. And then of course it turns out that they’re just being decent people, you know? I mean, I don’t even know why I get so upset about it. It’s not like I really make an effort to…’act like a girl’. That doesn’t really sound right. I suppose what I mean is that I don’t make an effort to behave like all of the other girls around me. I just don’t feel very comfortable in that role. So, I like it when guys treat me like a girl, but I don’t want to behave in a manner that would make them treat me like one. Does that make any sense? I can’t even make sense of my own head.